Thursday, November 6, 2014

When Following God's Call Costs Your Kids - Day 28


There are a lot of parts of being a Mom that are way harder than I thought they would be.  You can only understand so much until you're actually in the thick of it, experiencing it.  My very hardest life lessons have come connected to some part of parenting.   I know that everything I do affects those around me.  We all understand this to one degree or another and it motivates us.  We love our kids, love them more intensely than we thought could come out of us.



Elizabeth Stone said it perfectly:



There are so many times that I've done the right thing or gone the extra mile, more because I knew it was good for my kids than because it was good for me.  There's this thing that happens inside, a willingness to sacrifice for them like you would for no one else.

Here's the thing though.....sometimes my choices of obedience and sacrifice are a direct benefit to my kids....but other times my choices of obedience and sacrifice force them to join my pain without giving them a chance to say "No!"  It's one thing to chose hardship for yourself.....but, Man! choosing it for your kids is brutal!  I'll be honest.  My biggest fights with God over the paths He's asked me to walk, have come because I thought He wasn't being fair to my kids.


Here's what God has taught me, what I've had to choose to believe about Him when my emotions are screaming at me to run away:

God really is good, not just to me but to my kids.
God says this over and over about himself in his Word.  We say we believe it but we've gotta believe it enough to put our money where our mouths are.  If God really is good and loves my kids more deeply than I do, than what he's asking of me must be good for them.

The problem has to be with my view of the circumstances if I feel like I need to protect my kids from God's plan for their Mom.  It takes practice to take these moments, turn them around, and look at them from the other side....but you can learn to do it.

God's call to Scott and I to spend our lives in ministry has cost our kids a lot.  The statistics out there aren't good for pastor's kids leaving home with their own faith in God in tact.  Their parent's vocation requires them give up a chunk of their privacy, share their parents with the needs of a lot of people, and live a penny pinching lifestyle.....and not blame God for it when it feels hard.  Right from the beginning of our marriage I had a choice to make.  I could either live in fear about what would happen to our kids or trust God that he knows what he's doing and he's doing something FOR THEIR GOOD!  God's call was unmistakable and his character made it unlikely that he was telling us to blindly throw our kids to the wolves for the sake of that call.  So I decided to believe that the good outweighs the bad and made it my job to sound the trumpet when I see those things.

Why did you get to go on this overseas missions trip as an 11 year old?  Pastor's Kid!

Why does that famous speaker know your name and ask you about your soccer season?  Because your dad, the pastor, picked him up from the airport with you in the back seat!

Why do you often see your dad in your high school cafeteria?  It's part of his job!!!

Sometimes, it just takes a little work to see the things that are already happening and are true....the perks that you forgot.  When you look at those, your fight or flight reflex calms down and it makes it easier to trust.  But let me tell you this, sweet Mommas, there are going to be other times when God asks you to do something that will require a harder "Yes."  Sometimes, the only results we'll be able to see of our obedience is pain and loss in our kids lives.

You can still trust him in that "Yes."  You can know that he is doing things you can't understand or see.  You know that pain is not the enemy, sometimes it's the most powerful agent of growth.  You have to be willing to get out of the way of what God is doing, even though you don't understand it, and even though you know it's going to hurt, and even though you don't know how it's going to end.

We need to decide that if God asked our kids to die as martyrs we could step out of the way and let it happen.  We could say "Yes" to that.  It's not melodramatic to say that.  It's right.  Your kids are not your own, they are God's.  You are God's.  He deserves our obedience and trust even when it's hard.



Choose to fear the right things.
Our family size another thing that God and I had to wrestle through.  Adding a large family with a stay-at-home mom to a ministry budget doesn't seem smart.  But each time a new member was added to our family, God mercifully made his call very clear.

The "what-if's" and "How will this happen's" grow loud and can easily drown out the confidence that God had a plan in place before he issued the call to our hearts.  It's not always apparent that it's for our good....all of us.

As my boys entered high school I became increasingly fearful about their college bills.  Before, we always had the future to catch up and get the savings account funded before they graduated.  But my plan kept getting put on hold for God's plan and I found myself completely adrift in a sea of fear.  I cried a lot about it.  I cried to God....and I cried to them.

Looking back, I'm really not sure if this was a good parenting moment, but it ended up giving me one of the best kid moments I've ever experienced.  I talked with the boys a lot....warning them that the decision we were about to make as a family would make it certain that they would be on their own to pay for college.  I was freaking out about it and the fact that they weren't made me even more afraid.  I was certain their calm meant that they were clueless little babes walking into a hornet's nest they didn't see coming.  I couldn't have been more wrong.  They took turns telling me that they were convinced that this was right for our family, even if it would cost them.  With nodding heads, and level voices they told me,

"Mom, if you're going to get something wrong or leave something out....make sure it's not the eternal things.  If you screw up our college accounts, the worst that can happen is that we have to find another way to pay for it.  The stakes are a lot higher if you screw up by not following God's call with our family. Be more afraid of that."

My sons are wise, listen to them.  

All my fears have come true.  They are both in college struggling to pay massive bills that I can't help them with.  Just about every day I have to decide, again, to trust God with this, and with them.  Giving God's call in my life a "Yes" was the best way to parent them....even when it's hard.  Whatever he's doing is right, and it's for their good. 


Your obedience forces them to make their own decision.
When you say "yes" to God, it's going to put your kids in a spot where they have to make their own decision to trust him, or to live in fear.  This is good for them.  This gives them a faith that will walk out of your house with them someday.

Sometimes they will give into the feelings that it's not fair....that not having a say and just getting swept up in your obedience to God really stinks.  They're gonna screw it up sometimes.  Mine did.  I do.  But God still gives us a choice......every. single. time.  Our obedience to him is never forced.

Other times, you are going to get a window into your kids' soul that will take your breath away.  They are going to choose to sweetly surrender to your authority in their lives as clear direction straight from God.  They are going to display a trust in him that puts you to shame.  Then you will cry the tears that matter....tears, not of fearing what your obedience to God might cost your kid, but fearing that you could have missed this!


We have to learn to fear missing the miracles we can't see coming more than we fear the "what if's" we can see.

God IS going to ask things of you that cost your kids....and makes their lives harder.  These moments are going to put your heart through the fire and purify it.  You need to know, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that saying "Yes" to God, really is what's best for your kids.  

Take courage, Mommas.  Your heart may pound, you'll cry bucket-loads of tears.  But say "Yes."  Don't let fear sit down in your living room and pull up a footstool.  Keep your eyes on the most important legacy you can give your kids, a Momma who says "Yes" to God, and fear missing out on that. 

Say "Yes" to God.

No. Matter. What.

You can trust him with your kids.

You really can....now go live like it.


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